Linggo, Hulyo 26, 2015

FAMILY PRESSURE

          Have you experienced being pressured by your friends, peers, colleagues and more especially by your own family?  I know its not uncommon for us not to experience being pressured by your peers but being pressured by your family is another thing – well that’s for me.
               

          I am already a nurse and suddenly my family and myself chose to enroll to another program which is being a dentistry student. There was a sudden change in my career where all of a sudden I’m here at school looking at the building with a big signage of “ COLLEGE OF DENTISTRY”.  At first I was sure to take up this challenge but being here I was like face into a reality so it turned the other way around, I have doubts within myself. Doubts that would question my intellectual capacity, my emotion, my being positive as an individual and a lot more. 

          I admit that I really want to back off but well I'm here I don't want to be a disappointment. So I better finished what I started. It was my first time to be away from my parents in terms of school because back in the days I went to a school where my family is near. First day of school was always awkward and I really get the feeling that once they know that I am a second courses plus an Registered Nurse they will look up to me and for sure they will expect more of me, quite frankly I have also high expectation within myself. In school you see a lot of students, some of it you may not know that they are already your classmates or whatsoever and the class starts. During classes I made friends who I really like. But when they were able to know that I'm a nurse they were really saying "wow" and says that it was just easy for me being a dent student that I will not be having a hard time. Whoah! If they just know. So, in class we had our anatomy subject and we had a pretest and gosh! I really had hard time answering that exam, it was a wake up call for me to do better, to study and review my previous lessons and all.

         When I arrived at my boarding house I usually call my parents or vice-versa and they would ask me how I was, how was school and I always tell them that I'm really having a hard time and maybe dentistry is not really for me, maybe I\m just gonna stick to being a nurse.. And then they would I ask why? I told them the reasons why and they would just say.. "Nah! you just need the adjustment part, you can nail dentistry. Some of your subjects or lessons are familiar to you so we have high expectation in regards to your grade." And I was like WHAT?! Its not just the academic part that I'm worried about, I'm really worried about the finances, the tuition fees and allowances coz as we all know its really expensive to be a dentistry student and right know I might say we don't have that much money so I want to do an extra work so that in the same time I can help my family bu the question is will I have enough time to balance everything and to cope up the pressure that I'm feeling?

         I guess I just need to be a positive thinker. Let's get it on! Challenge accepted, So help me God,

"You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you."